tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5987291Wed, 25 Feb 2009 00:31:36 +0000I don't know how to describe this- only to say that this is a place to express my thoughts, ramblings, or whatever seems to be on my mind.http://acthoughts.blogspot.com/noreply@blogger.com (Andrea)Blogger169125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5987291.post-4794455827348051088Mon, 27 Aug 2007 22:00:00 +00002007-08-27T18:13:43.726-05:00 Just for those who are wondering, yes, I am still alive! Also, want to add special thanks to those who made special inquiries about me here in my comments- it's always nice to feel missed! :) Thank-you so much!__I am not sure what I wrote about in my last post- I think it was a MEME- and I know I have yet to talk about my vacation (which actually seems like a lifetime ago!)- but I have so muchhttp://acthoughts.blogspot.com/2007/08/just-for-those-who-are-wondering-yes-i.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Andrea)6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5987291.post-2345194191931049938Sun, 24 Jun 2007 00:49:00 +00002007-06-23T21:02:13.156-05:00I just got back from my vacation to the Bahamas (and I'll post about that later), but first this :)... THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:1. Andrea2. Drea/Dre3. A.THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:this one is going to be tough... 1. My eyes- I like that they change colors depending on what I wear2. My hair- it's naturally curly, but I prefer it straight... I like being able to have the option http://acthoughts.blogspot.com/2007/06/i-just-got-back-from-my-vacation-to.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Andrea)2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5987291.post-1130972664296777594Sat, 16 Jun 2007 03:47:00 +00002007-06-16T00:41:27.476-05:00Today actually started with a bang, but, unfortunately, ended with a BIG, old THUD. :( :(:( ... but that's generally how things go for me, so I guess I can't be totally surprised. Let me back up and describe what happened...Basically it was an ordinary day... well, actually, no, it wasn't. Today was my last day at my job. I think I mentioned in a previous post that I accepted a different http://acthoughts.blogspot.com/2007/06/today-actually-started-with-bang-but.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Andrea)2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5987291.post-7113472489852161378Wed, 06 Jun 2007 01:44:00 +00002007-06-10T07:36:02.139-05:00I have been meaning to post... and I'd like t say that I have a good reason why I haven't, but I really don't have any excuse.Actually, scratch that. I think part of the reason I put off writing was b/c I was sort of hoping that I would have better things to report than I do... But, sadly, I'm still doing about the same.Depression is a very powerful thing and, though I feel like I am trying to http://acthoughts.blogspot.com/2007/06/i-have-been-meaning-to-post.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Andrea)2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5987291.post-2727181526997084676Sat, 12 May 2007 22:54:00 +00002007-05-12T20:26:53.157-05:00Time for an update...Since I've posted last, a lot has changed. Some good, or possibly good, and some, well, not really good at all. My mood lately has been up and down. There are moments that I feel ok- where I feel alright with things and can function pretty normally (well, as normally as possible for me). But those moments are so fleeting- and it seems that just about anything can send me intohttp://acthoughts.blogspot.com/2007/05/time-for-update.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Andrea)2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5987291.post-1415294190693824450Fri, 04 May 2007 02:57:00 +00002007-05-03T22:38:29.681-05:00I'm going to try and keep this post short and sweet (if that's possible)... but forgive me if I ramble a bit... I'll do my best to get to the point. Ever put yourself out on the limb or do something that you would probably never do... only to be disappointed? Unfortunately that seems like the story of my life. And, sadly, when that happens, it makes me far less likely to take further chances. I http://acthoughts.blogspot.com/2007/05/im-going-to-try-and-keep-this-post.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Andrea)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5987291.post-4307603932527802489Fri, 20 Apr 2007 04:37:00 +00002007-04-20T00:15:58.807-05:00It's 12:38 am and, yes, I should be sleeping right now, but I can't... I don't know why exactly, but I'm feeling VERY alone tonight. In fact, as I write this, tears are falling. I'm sad, to put it in the most simplistic words I can probably express. But it pretty much sums ME up right now. I know I only write here to express my sadness... at least most of the time, but I guess I don't know http://acthoughts.blogspot.com/2007/04/its-1238-am-and-yes-i-should-be.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Andrea)7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5987291.post-2621268987917593166Mon, 26 Mar 2007 00:34:00 +00002007-03-25T22:15:01.378-05:00Sadly, the weekend is over :( ... It sucks that it's over and another Monday is approaching, but I guess that's how it goes. Hopefully, it will go a little smoother than last week.Speaking of which, I didn't post about it, but just about a week ago, I had a little mishap driving to work. It was Monday, and I figured that b/c of that I should leave a little earlier as there seems to be more http://acthoughts.blogspot.com/2007/03/sadly-weekend-is-over.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Andrea)3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5987291.post-6517111352495451542Fri, 16 Mar 2007 23:47:00 +00002007-03-16T20:10:41.356-05:00It's a winter storm here today in my neck of the woods~ It's been snowing, sleeting, and, I think, we are on freezing rain now... Lovely, isn't it? As you can tell by my sarcasm, I'm SO not a fan of this mixed precipitation, but seeing that we've been pretty much spared this winter- I probably shouldn't complain. Anyway, due to the weather, I didn't make it into work. I felt somewhat guilty http://acthoughts.blogspot.com/2007/03/its-winter-storm-here-today-in-my-neck.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Andrea)7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5987291.post-6138219228032639948Sun, 11 Mar 2007 02:12:00 +00002007-03-10T21:15:34.310-05:00A few of my fellow OC bloggers did this one, so I decided to try it too! It actually seems to be pretty accurate as these quizzes go... Although I'm not too sure about the being balanced or peaceful part (???) . The Part of You That No One SeesYou are balanced, peaceful, and sincere.You're the type of person who goes along to get along.And you're definitely afraid of rocking the http://acthoughts.blogspot.com/2007/03/few-of-my-fellow-oc-bloggers-did-this.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Andrea)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5987291.post-5932374682161856276Mon, 05 Mar 2007 02:33:00 +00002007-03-04T22:27:17.624-05:00Seven Things... (thanks for the tag, BetterCell :) ). SEVEN THINGS TO DO BEFORE I DIE...1. Get "cured" from T1DM.(Had to steal this from BC- kind of tops my list)2. Find my soulmate3. Find a career I love 4. See more of the world...5. Get to meet and know more people.6. Be more accepting of myself and others 7. Find HappinessSEVEN THINGS I CANNOT DO1. Be Organized2. Stop Drinking Diet Soda :o(3http://acthoughts.blogspot.com/2007/03/seven-things.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Andrea)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5987291.post-8265257723267247580Fri, 02 Mar 2007 02:32:00 +00002007-03-01T23:37:20.782-05:00 I had a discussion with my Mom during the week- ok, it was more like a disagreement than a discussion... Anyway, regardless of what you may call it, something came up that has been on my mind over the last few days. Basically, she said that she doesn't think that I am ever going to be happy or content with anything... Ok, she was speaking in terms of the support that she gives me, not so muchhttp://acthoughts.blogspot.com/2007/03/i-had-discussion-with-my-mom-during.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Andrea)8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5987291.post-3974573985547848008Mon, 26 Feb 2007 02:39:00 +00002007-02-25T23:48:54.151-05:00I hate to say it, but I've been getting that antsy,tense, knot in my stomach feeling more and more lately. I know it's my anxiety acting up yet again and I know a lot of it has to do with my job situation. No, it's nothing like my last job- where I wast almost scared to go in. But it's still not great. I mean, lately I feel like I am being pushed too much! And, yes, while I can work under a http://acthoughts.blogspot.com/2007/02/i-hate-to-say-it-but-ive-been-getting.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Andrea)2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5987291.post-12002104627909309Sat, 17 Feb 2007 04:47:00 +00002007-02-19T00:12:13.081-05:00J., my therapist, and I met again today for another session... It actually didn't start off as I may have wanted it to start, but turned out to be time well spent. After the past few weeks of having emotional breakdowns, I had plenty on my mind... which probably goes without saying. A lot of things came up and we discussed a lot!Prior to our appointment, I have a habit of thinking about what I amhttp://acthoughts.blogspot.com/2007/02/j.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Andrea)3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5987291.post-667830134829011759Wed, 14 Feb 2007 20:52:00 +00002007-02-14T17:55:34.321-05:00I didn't end up going to work today... The weather turned out to be a nasty, cold, icy mess! :-(. I'm really not a fan of cold, snow, or ice at all, but, that said, I'm sort of glad that it turned out to be like this. I don't think I could have gone in today anyway~ I never realized how much depression can take out of a person. It's truly astounding.I've received several comments and posts from http://acthoughts.blogspot.com/2007/02/i-didnt-end-up-going-to-work-today.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Andrea)4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5987291.post-4594596067813300080Sun, 11 Feb 2007 22:35:00 +00002007-02-10T17:21:56.132-05:00I know it will come as no surprise to most readers, but I've come to realize that I have been slipping deeper and deeper into a depression. This weekend it reared it's ugly head... I spent most of it extremely down in the dumps. I think I was either in tears or on the verge of tears at almost every moment...As I've mentioned, I have started to seek therapy at my workplace. Friday, we met up againhttp://acthoughts.blogspot.com/2007/02/i-know-it-will-come-as-no-surprise-to.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Andrea)7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5987291.post-8720271494296978551Sat, 10 Feb 2007 04:35:00 +00002007-02-08T00:23:59.068-05:00I think the title says it all! http://acthoughts.blogspot.com/2007/02/i-think-title-says-it-all.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Andrea)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5987291.post-1319726803783939785Mon, 05 Feb 2007 02:37:00 +00002007-02-04T22:14:15.410-05:00It would be really nice to say that things are looking up... I sincerely would like to be able to say that, but I can't... I'm still down :( and mopey-dopey. Sorry, I know I must be boring those of you who have continued to read my blog. (though I don' t blame those who have given up!).Anyway, despite how I'm feeling, I think I do need to take a break from writing about my mood. I've noticed thathttp://acthoughts.blogspot.com/2007/02/it-would-be-really-nice-to-say-that.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Andrea)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5987291.post-3324284496161023988Sat, 03 Feb 2007 04:32:00 +00002007-02-03T18:33:11.677-05:00As you can see, I decided to change the template to my blog as well as the title. I just thought it was time... Naming my blog, "My Blog", ok, wasn't the most original title... a 2nd grader could probably do better, but I guess at the time when I started it, it was all that came to mind. Complete Chaos seems to be a lot more fitting, in my opinion- it kind of sums up how my life has been... and http://acthoughts.blogspot.com/2007/02/as-you-can-see-i-decided-to-change.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Andrea)3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5987291.post-116952032480902445Tue, 23 Jan 2007 02:13:00 +00002007-01-22T21:45:24.876-05:00I had hoped tht today would start a fresh, new, AND better week... What the hell was I thinking?! My blood sugar over the weekend was absolutely HORRIBLE . Saturday, I came home from the gym and tested... To my dismay I was over 200. Ok,that was a bit of a surprise, but I took a correction dose, and tried to shrug it off. The next reading would surely be better, right?! WRONG!!! Hours laterhttp://acthoughts.blogspot.com/2007/01/i-had-hoped-tht-today-would-start.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Andrea)7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5987291.post-116942066235615541Sun, 21 Jan 2007 22:59:00 +00002007-01-21T18:04:22.376-05:00<!--Start of Insulin Pump Webring code-->Yesterday, I never got around to posting a song ... Sorry about that- just was an incredibly hectic day. This would ordinarily end my week of doing this, but I think that since I skipped a day, I'll just end it tomorrow. Before I put a close to this all, I can not ignore a group that I absolutely love. If you can't guess whom I'm referring to...http://acthoughts.blogspot.com/2007/01/yesterday-i-never-got-around-to.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Andrea)1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5987291.post-116926650193603007Sat, 20 Jan 2007 03:34:00 +00002007-01-19T23:15:02.240-05:00I chose this song/video, b/c it's SO unique and different. It reminds me of my own dreams~ surreal, unusual, and bizarre, but that's what makes them so interesting. Sometimes I'll wake up and my dreams will be so vivid in my head that it really makes an impression on me, but more often than not (at least lately) I can't remember them. It's weird, but sometimes I look forward to going to http://acthoughts.blogspot.com/2007/01/i-chose-this-songvideo-bc-its-so.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Andrea)2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5987291.post-116917810682232339Fri, 19 Jan 2007 03:06:00 +00002007-01-18T22:41:46.893-05:00This week has been rough for me, if you haven't guessed. I've become a complete basket case lately... I really thought I was doing better~ but then something happens and I have a set back (story of my life). I need to get a grip, I know. Anyway, again, I had some difficulty choosing a song/video. I decided to choose a Sarah McLaughlin song. She's definitely one of my favorite artists- she http://acthoughts.blogspot.com/2007/01/this-week-has-been-rough-for-me-if-you.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Andrea)2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5987291.post-116912410630385389Thu, 18 Jan 2007 12:32:00 +00002007-01-18T07:41:46.333-05:00I had this post all written last night... and, of course, I lost connection to the internet :( :( :(! Of course, I lost the post and I couldn't get back online. Usually, I would be up to all hours trying to get back online and usually making the problem worse, but since I've been so sleep deprived- I just went to bed... Ok, that's a lie- I ended up having a little binge last night, which http://acthoughts.blogspot.com/2007/01/i-had-this-post-all-written-last-night.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Andrea)0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5987291.post-116900498531152921Wed, 17 Jan 2007 02:58:00 +00002007-01-16T22:36:25.330-05:00I'm having a bit of a down day today :(... Just not feeling that great about myself at the moment~ not that I do usually, but today it seems to be worse than normal. I know I'm overly tired and that's probably a major contributor to this, but this sucks BIG time. I think I chose this song, b/c there is something sad about it- it really gets to me and stirs up a lot of emotions. It kind of http://acthoughts.blogspot.com/2007/01/im-having-bit-of-down-day-today.htmlnoreply@blogger.com (Andrea)2