Tuesday, December 26, 2006

Christmas is over... I don't know about you, but for me, it's a bit of a bummer. It's not uncommon for me to get bummed out about it... I mean, in a way, I'm glad all the shopping, the hectic-ness, and all the other jazz is done for this year, but, at the same time, it makes me a little sad that all that stuff is over too. There's all this excitement, anticipation, and preparation, and then it's over in a flash... my goodness.

My Christmas turned out really nice. I don't think I was that good this past year, but I guess Santa had a different opinion, b/c I made out like a bandit. The gifts and goodies are always wonderful, but I know that's not what the holiday is really about. I haven't been real religious lately, but I know it's really about Christ's birth. It was so nice that my family was together, celebrating, and enjoying that special day.

As if Christmas didn't come and go by quickly, soon we will be marking another new year... It blows my mind and kind of freaks me out to know that another year is starting. It always makes me wonder about what kind of year it will be. Will it bring a lot of changes? Or will it be a pretty, uneventful year...

I was thinking about 2006... My first thought was that it was a pretty tame year, but after giving it more thought, a lot of things actually happened. I started and left a job that I couldn't stand, I went through a surgery, I took some risks and stepped out of my comfort zone (which was extremely difficult, but, yes, long overdue), I made new friends, I had some disappointments, and I had some successes. It was a year of many ups and downs- no doubt about it.

As for 2007, I'm hoping that it will be mostly good things, but life can be unpredictable as we all know. Speaking of the new year, yes, I usually make resolutions... This year is of course no exception. But, instead of making resolutions to stop doing certain things... I am going to make resolutions to do things more, if that makes sense. Ok, maybe I should give you an example.

One of the big ones is my diet soda habit... So instead of saying that I am going to stop drinking diet soda, I am going to say, I am going to start drinking more other things than soda. I'm not going to quit soda all together, but I'll drink other beverages such as water more. I think it's more realistic and will make actually keeping the resolution easier.

My next one is continuing to take steps beyond my comfort zone. This one is really hard for me, but I know I need to keep doing this. I don't want to get to a certain age and feel regretful that I didn't live my life as fully as I should have. I have to push myself to get out, meet new people, and enjoy life.

This one is kind of connected to the last one... I need to do something about my anxiety. Looking back, I think I've always been an anxious and nervous person... even as a child. In fact, I think there have been times in school, where I experienced what I think must be panic attacks. Unfortunately, I don't think I have shaken that completely. I still experience stress and anxiety almost, if not, each and every day. And I think that's truly awful... Its awful to wake up feeling that way. Not only, does it make enjoying life difficult, but feeling stressed and dealing with anxiety makes an impact on not only emotional health, but physically as well. Who knows, it may have been a contributing factor to me developing Diabetes.

Anyway, i feel that something has to be done about this. At my new job, they offer counseling services for employees... which i think is awesome. Not only is it great b/c it helps each employee deal with their issue, but it also makes us better employees. There's no question in my mind that personal problems affect how we do our job, but if we can effectively manage these things, we can hopefully help correct or improve the situation and move forward. I'm definitely going to look into speaking with someone, as well as possibly start on a medication to help me with this issue. I am not opposed to anything that has the potential to help you.

Lastly, I am making the resolution to do my best to stay healthy and control of my Diabetes. Lately, things have been difficult regarding my Diabetes control. I have had very erratic numbers, and I've been feeling out of control... which is something I hate. At times, I think I am doing ok, but the truth is I don't think I have been doing everything in my power to have good control. I know I need to be stricter with myself, and show some self-control, but it's easier said than done, I know. My plan is to set an appointment with my Endocrinologist once my insurance kicks in, as well as my CDE/dietitian, and have a good talk about what I can do to improve things. I also want to run some tests an make sure there aren't other things going on in my body that is making managing this disease harder than it is to begin with. Once I know where I stand, I think I will be able to set some goals, make a plan, and take steps to get there.

Staying health is SO important to me. Frankly, if you don't' have your health, living life is so much harder. It's funny b/c it is taken for granted by so many people, as I did pre-diabetes, but now that I have this disease, it's something that I have learned to appreciate. I guess that saying is true that you really don't know what you got, til it's gone...

I don't want to end this on a negative or preachy note- I sincerely hope everyone had a wonderful holiday, no matter what you celebrated, and here's hoping that 2007 is our best year yet!


Anonymous Anonymous said...

Oh, the diet soda habit--it's a tough one to quit. Lately I've limited myself to no more than one can/cup per day and I try to do decaf when I can and I'm only allowed to have it at lunch or in the afternoon. I decided the soda at breakfast thing needed to stop :) Goodluck!

12:06 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Sounds like you have some great goals for the new year! Diet soda is tough, like Mel said.

Best wishes for the coming year, and happy holidays!

12:59 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

It sounds like you have some great ideas for how you want to improve things in your life. Remember that the biggest changes that are made in our lives start with one small step, followed by another small step. Sometimes you may not feel like you are getting anywhere, but that is not the case, and in six months all those small steps add up. The first step, also, is often the hardest. Hang in there and I hope to see updates on how you are doing on all this!

9:26 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi Andrea!

I think you have a great approach to things, like the diet soda thing you mentioned.

To phrase it like you have is so much easier to work with rather than feeling like you are limiting yourself.

I think you have done many great things in 2006, and look forward to sharing more of your story in 2007.

Take care!

10:44 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Happy New Year Andrea.......don't forget, " a cure '" is just down the road.

8:53 PM  

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