Monday, January 26, 2004

I thought I should blog tonight, it's been a while. Things are basically the same as they have been. It's a Monday so I am not happy, but I guess that's a given. Work is the same...dull, dull, dull. Not to mention, that I am underpaid, and I am unchallenged, and it's so unrewarding. I guess I must sound like a broken record the way I go on about it. Tonite it really upset me though b/c I got my tax return W-2 and I saw my earnings and how pathetic and little I make. I don't even want to mention the amount b/c it's that bad. I keep applying for new things, but I have gotten no response. It's depressing.

Mom and Dad are moving Friday and I must admit that it's a little scary. I depend on them a lot, maybe too much. It's nice to have them around and I am going to miss them. I like having them right around the corner and although they aren't going to be that far away, it's not going to be like it is now. I guess it's something that's going to take some adjustment.

Sunday, January 18, 2004

We were snowed in today! Well... not really...I did get out today. I managed to go to the gym, the store, and to Blockbusters. I guess it just seems like I have been in all day, b/c I have been inside since about 4 and it's now 8. I guess it's ok to have days like today sometimes, I just hope that the snow doesn't keep coming continuously.

This weekend is almost over, luckily tomorrow I am off for MLK birthday. It's also Mom's birthday. I hope she has a really great day, she so deserves it. I love her a lot. I think we are going out to celebrate tomorrow nite. Hopefully, everyone will behave and it'll be a nice time.

Keara goes back to school sometime this week. I don't know which day, but I can't believe her time home is over. It seems like she just got home. I have to say that at times I really do enjoy her home, but then there are definitely times that I think she is better at school or by herself. I don't know how she is going to be after the move. I hope she will be nice about it, but I think she will probably not take it so good at first.

I don't think I mentioned that Kathy and I are now back on speaking terms, for the moment anyway. Who knows how long that will last, she is hard to read and you can never tell how she is going to react to things. I just hope we can keep things on a friendly, civil level.

Monday, January 12, 2004

This morning I really wished the weekend was longer, it felt like I had none. I guess that's what happens when you work Sat. morning. It seemed to go by in a flash. I was somewhat busy, but nothing crazy. After work, I went to the gym and babysitting. Then Sunday, I met Jen at the mall. We had lunch and got to chat a little bit. She's not happy at work either, I don't think many people are nowadays. She's looking for something else, but who knows if she will actually change jobs. Sometimes she is all talk and no action. It will be interesting to see who finds a job first.

Kathy is back at work and, no, I am not too happy. She is such a moody, sometimes bitchy person. When I was walking in the building this morning, I remembered she would be back and I was very resistant to going inside, but since there are so many bills to pay I had to. She kind of ignored me at first, for what reason, I don't know, but then she was ok. However at the end of the day, she seemed grouchy again. I think it's b/c I mentioned rotating stations. She didn't seem to happy about it, but as Marie says, she doesn't seem too happy about anything. I guess that's just her.

surprisingly, my blood sugar is much better the last couple days. I don't know if it's a change in my eating habits, exercise, hormones, or a new supplement I have been trying-Chromium Picolinate. Whatever the case I hope it continues.

Tuesday, January 06, 2004

Today was one of those days where I wished I had a different job. It was not a good day. It was mostly b/c of my co-workers. They were griping about work and basically that's all they accomplished today. On top of that, I am just so bored and tired of it all. I don't know when I will find something else, I just hope that it's not that much longer. Plus, Kathy will be back in a little while and I don't think things will get much better, probably worse actually. Ugh!

Not too much else to say today, it's just one of those days. I am tired and kind of out of it. Even Steve, the runner, said that I don't seem myself. I have been walking around in a daze. I also have been so hungry and eating like a pig. I think it's b/c of my period next week, but who knows. I just know I won't lose weight eating this way. Plus, I went to my parents house for dinner and I alsys eat more there. When I got back my blood sugar was high, nothing really new, but I hate to see that. It's a bit scary. I think it's better for my bs when I eat at my apartment, I don't think I eat as much. I could be totally wrong though, it wouldn't be the first time.

Thursday, January 01, 2004

Hard to believe, but it's now 2004! I can't believe it. Time really does fly by, especially from the college years on. I am just hoping 2004 is a better year for me than any other year I've had. I need a change in my life and hopefully something good.

Last nite, my sister and I went to Molly Darcy's for dinner with my parents and then we stayed til midnight. It was kind of dull, but in a way it was better than just staying home like I might have done.

Tomorrow is back to work and I am not wanting to go, as always. I keep looking for new jobs, but there's nothing and it is discouraging. I hope the new year brings a better, more enjoyable, and better paying job. I need something that will give me benefits right away and I don't think many jobs offer that.